Hey there, I'm deeply apologetic to those who were affected by my nonsense attitude last few days, especially my family.
I AM VERY SORRY. =/For the past 2 days, my life condition was at its lowest. Told myself that I must not affect those around me, wanted to put on a smile but just could not bring myself to it. I was annoyed by anything around me. Got easily irritated and agitated. I wasn't like this before. No idea why this time....
Thought of not working on my choreographing of the Youth Dance for the Friendship Gathering in September for the time-being; have been thinking the dancesteps all the time, as long as there are some inspirations, even in my dreams. No joke. Wanted to just escape from it; wanted not to think of it through devoting myself to my studies and wanted to go jogging, or rather, sprinting around the stadium.
NONETHELESS, THIS ISN'T WHAT A RESPONSIBLE LEADER SHOULD DO!I chanted daimoku to cool myself down and thank you brother for his jokes and laughing out real loud with me late at night.
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Some of Thomson Zone Youth Leaders had a heart-felt dialogue with GD Ong the other night, and I attended the SD Nationwide Meeting. It was real great, met many precious comrades-in-faith, and I've learnt alot!
I was deeply touched by some of my ASD Comrades for they still remember my name even when we have only last interact 4 months ago, in preparation for the February Institution Meeting! One still even remember that I'm from CO and plays the guzheng!
I'm really moved by them and guess that the May Institution Meeting has left a great impact on them, because they remember me acting as Ikeda's wife, Mineko. HEES. :D
At the meeting, I was appointed the ASD YWD Student-IC for TPJC. I was surprised that Glenn from TPJCO, who has helped me with the moving of my guzheng and same Duties-IC during one of our CO practices, is also a Gakkai member, and involving in NDP'08! And through him, I got to know that there are other 2 YMDs TPJC-ASD! (:
Below are the 4 TPJC-ASDs whom I know so far and I've to mention, and wanting to thank them. (:
1)
Ming Yuan ~ Our J2 TPJC-ASD 大哥 who guides us in different aspects.
2)
Joel Ang ~ We were involved in the same meetings back in Future Division; encouraging one another.
3)
Xiaotong ~ Overcoming her illness; we don't really know her well but it was her that brought the TPJC-ASDs together for the first time.
4)
Glenn ~ My newly-found TPJC-ASD member, as well as CO mate; share common goal in both Gakkai and CO.
I feel fortunate to have them in the same college. (:Next, the testimonies are wonderful. I've seeked many guidances from these testimonies. (= Quoted from our
ASD Song, "Cos' We Are":With faith I can achieve
With faith I believe that we will be
The very best that we can beIt's my
ASD Comrades who have
kept me going;
It's my
dearest family members who have
given me the fullest support;
It's my
determination and strong desire to encourage and motivate those around me that
I'm holding on;
and this list continues...
And I'm honestly looking forward to the next upcoming ASD outdoor activity, Connexion, in July. At the moment, I must concentrate and score victories for my Mid-Year Exams when school reopens. Jiayou everyone! (:
"A Path at Windsor"

Photo taken by Ikeda Sensei, adapted from
http://www.daisakuikeda.org/index.php?mid=nature&sub=b-earth&dimchar=normalCome to think about it, I'm glad that I've been assigned different positions and tasks in Gakkai. Although there are ups and downs, I've grown, and learnt how to be a more capable and responsible leader. And most importantly, I'm learning to juggle both my studies and commitment in Gakkai.
With faith, I will start afresh and move on. [: